I recently lost my day job and it has not been a week sense, so I’m coming out of the shock phase and going into the coping stage. One of the best things I learned to do to deal with my emotions, the darker ones at least is to write. Specifically type, type long blog post explaining publicly how I feel about matters. Pretend I’m talking to a large audience candidly, openly. This is my agony and joy for the time being

I am free of my day job. The person that said “don’t quit your day job” had to have been masochistic or sadistic, not sure one but it was pure agony for me to go to work. My job we in retail, in a poorly designed store. To orchestrate change and counter the damage cause by lack luster employees I pushed forward with my career, even without increased pay. I found a few brief months of peace as my bosses lauded my efforts only to be struck down now by red tape.

I am not happy because this means change, and change means fear, not something I like having. So here is my plan. Look for other day jobs yes, not whole-heartedly like the last few times I have been out of work though. This time I am only going for the best. The absolute best in day job while taking the time to also build this site, do all the things necessary to create products. Then get them approved on Themeforest, Envato’s marketplace.

This is what I want to do with my life. I want to write code all day, I want to write articles like this all day. I want the freedom of time to spend with my children should I them one day, and I want the freedom to be at the beck and whim of my wife.

I am not cut out for non-thought provoking work. I am not a machine, I am a human and I want to be respect and paid as such. Used as such. I’m sure there is a stocking robot somewhere. I am sure there is a checkout robot somewhere I am sure there is an automated way to withdraw funds from ones account, I am sure there are ways to do every aspect of my previous job in a way using only electricity.

I am not cheap labor. Call it pride, but I call it self respect, I take this oppertunity to move forward not slide to the side into the next hell hole, even if it pays more. To me till I am raking in money from Envato and similar companies while doing door to door religious service, I am not content in my work.