Not till Five PM

I’m starting to get the idea that I should not start actively coding till 5:00PM EST, for some reason my skills have been drained untill that time. Today has not been very productive in my opinion. My brain feels sluggish and overworked. Yesterday I did nearly a complete overhaul of the way Isolated Reality deals with the index file and returned it to a more standard implementation. (more…)

Difficulties with Hope

As my teenage years concluded I came to believe that hope makes you miserable, it lets you down, kills your spirit because somethings that you but your hope in just will not come to fruition. I would detach myself from hope if it was not a natural human trait. Here is how I have come to deal with hope. (more…)

The Grinding Gears

I recently lost my day job and it has not been a week sense, so I’m coming out of the shock phase and going into the coping stage. One of the best things I learned to do to deal with my emotions, the darker ones at least is to write. Specifically type, type long blog post explaining publicly how I feel about matters. Pretend I’m talking to a large audience candidly, openly. This is my agony and joy for the time being (more…)